Breastfeeding

This post has been sat here a few days waiting to be finished, waiting for the right words to actually come to mind. I'm so proud of Isla and I, 14 days of exclusive breastfeeding with only a minor glitch of mastitis in my right boob, I say minor it bloody hurts, really fucking hurts actually! but I have to feed of it still to drain it, not sure how well our latch is as my boob is SO full and sore I can't see how she's getting a good mouthful, the outer side of the nipple is actually cracked in a long line (the side where the top of her mouth would be) so I think that explains her latch. Luckily my lovely Dr saw me in my hour of need after the surgery had closed monday night to look at the damage and give me some antibiotics, which are making Isla quite unsettled and feed ALOT! She'll go 4 hrs, then 1 hrs, then 2, then 1! I'm not sure if we're doing the right thing, or if she's getting enough milk. When she does feed off the right side (mastitis side) it hurts on the first latch but then eases off, but I don't hear her having a good gulp like she does on the left side, has my milk supply gone down? We have to finish on the left after most feeds for her to settle, but I'm not sure if this is the right thing to do! I'm racking my brains here! The left side is a dream to feed from, soo comfortable. A feeling I never had with Flynn, we fed for 10 days, and those 10 days included ALOT of pain, every feed brought me to tears I just had to stop. I did however express after so he still had my milk as I had so much of it I couldn't see it wasted! So I know how a good and bad latch should feel. I have that knowledge least! The rest I'm absolutely clueless about. I have no idea what we're doing really! I never made it past day 10 before so I don't know what should be happening. All I know is that the left side is good and the right side needs to be as good as the left, how I'll get there..no idea? The health visitor is coming tomorrow morning so hopefully Isla's weight has gone up nicely and she can give me some light at the end of the tunnel. I quite like my boobs and have never looked after them so much after Flynn chomped them half to death. So to 'fail' again at feeding would really devastate me. I have milk for my baby that will make her super woman and me super skinny (one can hope) so let's hope these pills fix the wrong and were back on track..on knees praying!